I’ve realized that it’s been a long time since I took the time to stop and just sit down to write. I don’t have something to look back and reflect on. These last couple of years have been full of personal ups and downs. It’s been a battle within myself to figure out what I want to do and how I’m going to get there. But I want to be able to remember what it was like to grow through these experiences. I thought that by writing to myself and by being completely honest, I might find a way to use my emotions and energy more constructively.
I believe that I have a strong sense of self. I know who I am and what I am capable of. Now more than ever, I trust my intuition. I do also accept the fact that I am the one holding myself back. I have changed quite significantly in my own opinion. I once was extremely confident and fearless. My optimism was unwavering and I never took no for an answer. As an adult, I have faced countless challenges and have realized that I am not always in control but that is okay. Life is not always fair and that is okay too. It has made me more cautious and at times I wonder if it is to a fault. I worry A LOT and it’s hard to turn it off. My fears and doubts take over and I know that it is uncharacteristic of who I truly am deep down.
Lately, I’ve been watching a ton of inspirational videos, reading blogs and going to events. Life these days is all about finding your passion and creating your destiny. It’s almost suffocating but I think it’s a sign of the times and a part of our generation. It’s hard to feel innovative or creative but I need to stop listening to everyone else and just be true to myself. I know I can make it happen, it’s time to just do it already.
Some favorite links right now:
- It's strange to say this but it actually feels like summer here in San Francisco! These refreshing popsicles are just what we need.
- A few of the admittedly undeniable realities of becoming an adult...
- My drink of choice lately is anything with gin so this raspberry sparkler recipe is perfect. Anything with bubbly is definitely a plus in my book.
- And of course, there's nothing more I love than an awesome elopement.
