Jojo: But it's important to be resilient.
Me: How do you aquire resiliency?
Jojo: Just rising above. Overcoming adversity.
Me: Sigh, so it all comes from within... That's the part I'm having trouble with.
I've always been one to spend a little too much time thinking. Some days I sit here so engulfed in my dreams as the hours pass me by. And I come to realize many things. Part of me feels that I learned too soon what it's like to get everything I want. I have yet to understand true sacrifice & patience in fate. I want to be able to live simply & yet I don't want to lose my passion and drive. I don't want to lose that thirst for life.
A teeny tiny part of me misses that carefree selfish Sarah that I used to be. Life was a lot more fun back then. I miss letting my hair down and having fun. Somehow I'm going to find a way to really enjoy myself when I get there, to that point where I feel successful and deserve to live indulgently. I'm still young and I owe it to myself to try as hard as I can to live a life that is full & happy. Somehow I think I got caught up in settling & things being calm, which I had associated with being happy and having enough. But I realized I was coasting, meanwhile I should be finding the energy to keep reaching higher. It's in my nature to be that kind of person that keeps climbing. I will succeed. I have to believe that it is why I am here & this is what I am destined to do.
I throw my hands up in the air sometimes. Saying ayo, gotta let go. I wanna celebrate and live my life. Saying ayo, baby let's go. Cause we gon rock this club, we gon' go all night. We gon' light it up, like it's dynamite.
I'm gonna be the last one standing... I just want it all. -- Taio Cruz
